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March 30th, 2013

3/30/2013

Glenda Hayman

As always, I come away from our evening uplifted and ready to take on the week. Thank you, SO much, to my family for all the sharing, uplifting, leading to worship, EVERYthing you bring to the table. And thank you so much for the encouragement tonight, God is SO good. I love each of you SO much and already am looking forward to next week!!!!! Lets each make sure we get here to this site this week and keep this amazing awesome GOD given fellowship going!!!

"This will give us the opportunity to grow strong as we build one another up." 1 Corinthians 12:27

JAY's response:

Sweetness in the Spirit!!!

GLENDA's response

Kate is playing her music downstairs and I heard the lyrics

"Tell me your story, show me your wounds
And I'll show you what Love sees when Love looks at you
Hand me the pieces, broken and bruised
And I'll show you what Love sees when Love sees you"

This reminded me of our Aslan's Song family, and how tonight I saw so much of what Love sees when love looks at ME.... and how different a picture that is than I thought it was a year ago.

God has brought me SO far, taught me SO much, allowed me to love and be loved SO deeply. He is just so.. awesome and amazing and WORTHY of SO MUCH PRAISE!!! I just can't stop....

DI's Response:

You know, it feels so right when we share the way we did tonight, it reminds me of the way a family is suppose to be, laughing and loving and really caring what the other person says. Plus, we have the extra company of the Lord, blessing and enriching, expanding our understanding and appreciation for one another. The dimensions of his love keeping growing and he is really protecting us, so we can taste how his love is meant to flow into each other and grow and create new things for the beloved and the belov-ed. Nothing is boring, nothing wasted... it is all transformed moment by moment into a life giving force. I love seeing you, hearing you and listening and praying with you, watching you laugh, watching your eyes grow soft and shiny with tears. May God pull you into his reality, over and over again, as he is certainly brought you to mine and I am thankful... humbled.

GLENDA's response

I never got to experience a loving family, I always had this picture in my heart of what it would be like. I am seeing how exactly right my picture is as I experience week after week with you, the amazing family God has given to me. Tonight I began to feel as though I am not only being blessed but blessing others as well. That is such a big break through for me, I know that satan isn't going to be happy with this but I AM happy. Dad has been telling me this for some time and being able to SEE it, to recognize it's truth ... well, it's pretty amazing.

What a night. One year ago God gave me a gift I could never say THANK YOU enough for. Tonight He has moved in my heart and life in another big way.

WHAT A GOD!!!! THANK YOU JESUS!!!

Sitting at Your Feet

3/3/2013

Karen Peavler

Sitting at Your feet.
What a simple, but
Difficult place to find.

Being single minded.
Knowing that You are
All that matters.
Everything else can wait.

On the ground before You.
Like Mary,
Washing Your feet
With my tears.

Prostrate,
In pure humility.
Putting myself aside
And taking in
Your presence.

I don’t go before You
With total abandon
Very often.
I am too occupied
With myself--
And my sin.

Help me to lay myself
Before Your throne,
Touching Your scars--
Washing them with my tears--
Knowing
That You accept
My humble
Act of worship.

Karen Peavler
7-7-08

DIANE's RESPONSE

It is a lovely, almost spring day outside. This afternoon I am going to go sit alone outside, barefoot in the grass and think about the Lord. And then I am going to try something new... something I just read in your poem today... reach out to touch his scars and say I love you that special way you Lord are teaching me to love.

Thanks Karen for the spring board.

Help me to lay myself
Before Your throne,
Touching Your scars--
Washing them with my tears—

GLENDAS's RESPONSE:

This leaves me longing to go before God with total abandon, like a small girl dancing before her daddy - knowing he loves her and will love every move she creates "just for him". Freedom to be ME..... And knowing that He will accept my humble act of worship.
THANK you Karen, for sharing.

JAY's RESPONSE:

This is one of those "read it & weep" moments ... well ... ACTUALLY THREE of them. Through EACH of your writings, I am experiencing the depth of the "the manifestation of the Spirit (which) is given to each one for the profit of all." (1 Corinthians 12:7). THANK you for touching my heart!!!

The Double Edged Sword

3/2/2013

Diane Johnson

Psalms 23:4 “Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I will fear no evil for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.”

These last few days in my morning talks with the Lord, he has shown me how the staff I thought he held for discipline was also the staff he used to ward off mine enemies. And so began another lesson in my human nature. When I asked more he reminded me of the verse that says truth is a double edged sword. We know it can cut you and it can defend you. When I stand against the Lord, his words cut me to the quick. When I stand lost, looking for a way back to him that same rod becomes his staff and he leads me home. What he has been reminding me as I stand in a barren land and face my exodus from the next thing that has enslaved me is that his son not only died to save me from my sins, but Jesus walks along side me in the darkness too. Not only does he lift up my chin and say be not afraid, but he also says be not ashamed of the stew you are in, don’t be afraid to ask me to walk in it with you, I am already there anyway, walking it with you and if you ask... I will open your eyes so you can see me too. :>)

Isaiah 40:28-31 “Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and the young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on the wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”

Glenda's comment ...

THANK YOU so much Di for sharing. ALL of this touched my heart. But a little personal bit...

"Not only does he lift up my chin and say be not afraid, but he also says be not ashamed of the stew you are in, don’t be afraid to ask me to walk in it with you, I am already there anyway,"

all my life I have longed for that touch, that someone who will lift my chin, look into my eyes and when I see into theirs I will see LOVE... just so recently I have begun to believe that I CAN and DO have that in GOD! When I read that in your post, I cried. God touched my heart in SUCH a REAL way through your words. I have also spent my life always apologizing for every single mistake, constantly in a state of feeling I was in the wrong and needed to be ashamed of EVERYTHING I did. Again... the words God spoke through you were just what I needed to hear. Thank you SO much for allowing God to use YOU to speak to my heart. You are an amazing encouragement to me. Love you sister.

No Longer Running

3/1/2013

It has been a long time since I slept with a teddy bear. Tonight, however I dug one out of the closet. My emotions have taken a beating over the last 24 hrs and I just needed something to hug as I lay down and prayed, meditated and considered what had happened and what God desires to teach me through it.

As I lay here, I realized something important.
Several times in the past 24 hrs I have found myself saying "man I just want to run away". The cool thing is that I am just not able to run!! Growing up as an abused kid who never felt wanted left me with a deep hunger to be loved and cared about. Now that God has given me an amazing (adopted) dad who has proven, over & over, that he loves me ... AND is also extending my ‘family’ ... I simply can NOT run from it!

I learned early in life to run and hide … It was the safest way!
The time came when I was able to stop physically running but I continued hiding. I built huge walls around my heart and no matter who you were you never made it past that last wall.
I have learned to neither run nor hide, and yet this morning I faced a stronger temptation to run than I have in a very long time. Satan took full advantage of the struggles I have faced in the last couple days, and the weakness I was feeling, and he attacked right where he knew my deepest struggle has always been: Loving others.
Having been taught it was wrong to love others, for many years I didn’t allow myself to do so. Now, not only am I loving Dad, and Karen, but my family is extending to include all of you and I allowed my vulnerability to open up that fear, again.
I haven’t faced fear like I did this morning for a long, long time.
I turned to music, one of the ways God often reaches me, and I played “Home”, a song dad sent to me another time when I was hurting. One of the lines is “don’t pay no mind to the demons, they fill you with fear”. I instantly recognized where this fear was coming from.
I turned to John 13: 34 “A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. 35 By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.” Jesus tells us that we are SUPPOSED to love others AS HE LOVES US!! I am not wrong in loving the way I love … I am in fact COMMANDED to do just that!
I realized where it was all coming from and the battle ended.
The desire to run came to an end.
I am now back where I need to be, on a journey of love, with the family God has provided for me. Thank you for being on this journey with me.
I LOVE YOU ALL

JAY's RESPONSE:

TRULY appreciate the degree of openness & vulnerability it took to share this w/ all of us, Glenda. THANKS. VERY insightful!!!

ATHENA's RESPONSE:

Love the way God is working in your heart...and how, when we earnestly seek Him and are honest about how we feel, with Him and others, He helps us see the root of our fears and BAM...the minute we SEE, it no longer has control over us. God is sooooo good! Thank you for being so transparent...it is the only way to real freedom in Christ.

March 30th, 2013

Sitting at Your Feet

The Double Edged Sword

No Longer Running

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